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Me thinking outloud

It's that time of the month, and I'm an emotional rollercoaster. Don't ask me why, I just am. I wish that knowing it was coming would make it better some how, but it doesn't. I wish that knowing that things will affect me more strongly will somehow take the wind out of the emotional sails... but it doesn't. I watch a stupid commercial and I cry.

I feel like a walking tragedy, and for no apparent reason. Things are going good! So what's going on with me? Why am I feeling all tragic. I'm feeling like a victim. hmm. Why a victim? What is a victim? A victim is someone who has lost control of their situation and who has given up. Ok. So I'm feeling out of control. What's not in control?

1) Job? - no that's good (I just got reassured that I won't be laid off for at least the next 4 months)
2) Love life? - well that has issues, but for the most part it's good and improving (with occasional setbacks)
3) Finances? - for once in my life, they're under control

what's left?

Emotions. I have no control over them. I never do, but I have less at this time of month. Soooooo I'm feeling powerless over my emotions. Why are they so strong right now? Hormones. And the fact that there's a fucking river running through me. Who wouldn't be emotional if there was a river running through them. I think all humans, men included, should have to bleed for 1 week of every month. And I think they should have to deal with the subsequent hormonal shifts and emotional upheavals that accompany it. And the cramps and back pain. They should have twice as much because they weigh more. And I think they should suffer excessively, because it's not fair that they don't have this too.

Whoa, mood swing from feeling sorry for myself, to feeling sadistic :P


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Feb. 10th, 2004 01:44 am (UTC)
lol i hear ya shar! i got so bad that before my medication i was laid up on the couch, in the dark, in tears for at least five days of every month! does it help to know you're not alone?
Feb. 10th, 2004 06:53 pm (UTC)
not really. nice try though :P
Feb. 10th, 2004 02:29 am (UTC)
I can honestly say I "don't" know how you are feeling; but I do hope you get out of this mood before too long. Take care and remember, emotions can be like quicksand: they can drown you or you can swim out of them, because they just seem overwhelming at the moment.
Feb. 10th, 2004 06:55 pm (UTC)
Re: Hope
I'll never swim out of them, I'll drown and be washed up on the beach. *sob*

like a beached whale.

*double sob*
Feb. 10th, 2004 09:06 pm (UTC)
Re: Hope
No you won't. I'll throw you a life preserver to help you bring yourself back to the sea. You are a river and the sea refuses no river. "big internet hug" for you.
Feb. 10th, 2004 05:32 am (UTC)
Rides the River Wild With You
*hands you an oar and a lifejacket*

Mine came a day early this month and I am taking it personally.

Do you know how much food I consumed yesterday in my despair? Enough to feed a small country...like Russia.
Feb. 10th, 2004 06:56 pm (UTC)
Re: Rides the River Wild With You
yes, a combination of chocolate and salt. in equal proportions. weighed by the pound.
Feb. 10th, 2004 08:17 am (UTC)
I used to live with four women. You may or may not know that when women live together their cycles start to be the same.
I'm wondering if maybe if women share LJ their cycles become the same?
I'm in the same boat.
~hugs again
Feb. 10th, 2004 08:26 am (UTC)
Awwwwwwww CycleSisters...or is that PsychoSisters


Feb. 10th, 2004 07:00 pm (UTC)
hmmm CychoSisters maybe?
Feb. 10th, 2004 06:59 pm (UTC)
Get this, there was this study that had Doctors swabbing girl's armpits and having other women smell them. With one sniff all the women's cycle's were regulated to the dominant female. They decided it was the wondrous work of pheremones. Weird eh?
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